Caught up on you and am really sorry you are feeling so low. I want to comment on your question about why did you stand for your marriage when it didn't work out in the end.
You can't see the other side, but in my opinion you would feel even worse if you didn't stand or DB but instead went straight to divorce. You would always wonder "what if?"
You did what you could and that will serve you well in the end. I understand that money is an issue, but I really think that trying to keep your family intact trumped the money issue. In other words, it was worth the money to know that you did everything you could to save the marriage.
I know the feeling of being paralyzed to make a choice. But don't let things happen around you because of it.
Oh, and by the way- the courts will look at earning potential in all of this. A man with an established career vs. a stay at home mom-- I think things will end up more fairly than you think.
I know this is choppy, and I apologize. That leads to your question about your thread. I for one don't post at times because I simply don't have the time. I have to stay away, otherwise an hour checking up on people will turn into another hour posting and the next thing you know it is time to go to school and my latest assignment isn't done! Also, my posts end up choppy and all over the place when I am in a hurry. I hate to put stuff like this out there!
T, hang in there. Both you and Cagz are having such a hard time. This will get better. Just worry about you and take your H out of the equation for now. In all probability there would have been something wrong (in his mind) with any direction you had taken.
Don't beat yourself up for your choices. Trust in God - He knows what is best for you. You WILL be happy again someday.
