Hi there, first of all you can only worry about things you can change. As far as your H's finances..the courts don't really care. Judges see through the having money and now I am broke routine.
You stood for your M because you wanted to, don't second guess yourself. If your D is going to happen then it is time you start to change you. It is time to really begin to lead your life as if H is not coming back.
Of course you are lonely and sad, I think this is such a heartbreaking experience. We are only dealt cards we can handle and you will be ok.
Don't feel left out here...there is great advice to be found and shoulders to lean on.
