I'm going to take a shot at this, please tell me if I have it wrong.
I too feel that this relates to me and the NC and all the other MLC i'm trying to accomplish....
Yep, sometimes I wonder why do I have to do all the work and do I have the steam.....
and I'm tired ( of the drama) and nobody cares (or sometimes seems like it) and the kids need to be taken care of (no matter how old they are, this has affected them too) and the H (needs distant but caring conversation but only when necessary) and other people want me to move on (time moves on for them) and I keep plugging along and have self doubts about what the heck I'm really tring to do when it seems the whole world wants me to move on ( but I still love the Pain in hte Butt) Yea, I feel sorry for myself and yea I sometimes want to give in but....
I know that if this ends up the way I want it to, it will all be worth it and if it doesn't well then I did all that I could do and I can honestly say that to all whom ask.
I would know that I was being the martyr if I continued to stay in the frame of mind of " why the heck do I have to do everything, why is it always me and I quit because it has to be all about me now
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"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
