Sorry to hear how things went down, sorry that she couldn't even face you.
You haven't given up, and I really don't like that term much anyway, because you're tanks aren't empty, you're not ready too. It is not because you are stupid or foolish, it's just not in you to stop.
Call it what you want, but don't let anyone else put a label on it. You do for you.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK