When he acts nicely towards you, your H seems to have the idea that his problems (alcoholism in particular) are completely distinct from your R problems. As if he could ignore his own issues and still possibly see things work out between the two of you.
Eventually, I suspect you will have to draw the line in sand for him - he'll have to clean up and stay sober BEFORE things can be OK for your R - not afterwards.
You do sound stronger every day - proud of you!
Thread #10 22 year M, MLC, Piecing since 1/07 Goal: Live with confidence & enthusiasm!