I had a long day today! Took the kids to Church & Sunday School & then had my first dress rehearsal. The dress rehearsal and going over our mistakes after &a bunch of extra dancing when I was so tired!) took almost 6 hours. I am so tired! but the rehearsal did go OK at least!

H wants to start talking once a week about the kids & we did that for the first time today. Basically, I said 4 or 5 things about the kids (my son said he was depressed the other night and then the next day said he was joking so I don't know but I will mention to C on Thursday when she sees S14, and asked H about switching pediatricians for the kids (ours is an hour away with a 2 hour wait so I'd like to get one closer). He argued about the Dr. but I convinced him b/c I said I am the one that is going to be taking them to the dr. so it makes sense for me, and he finally agreed.

We had a fight as H was taking more stuff from the house (already took almost all the pictures when he moved out & today some dishes that belonged to his grandparents (We basically got the contents of their entire house when they passed.) I brought up how legally I was entitled to 50% of the pictures he had taken, and one he said would be mine when I agreed that we would take all his grandparent's stuff (a lot of it was kind of junk). He got all upset that I brought up that legally I was entitled to half, and then I said what bothered me the most is he is taking everything without asking me, b/c if he asked I would have most likely said yes to him taking it anyway (the picture I like a lot), he said he saw my point, and then I told him he should keep it b/c I want him to enjoy it.

H brought up that he has left the computer and TV and our beds and other things (of course he knows he would have had to replace all that anyway as we use the computer for school and need beds for the kids & I, but I told him OK you are right. At one point when he was just yelling at me, I asked him to leave and said if you are here to visit the kids, visit with the kids, and if you are here to yell at me, then you should just leave. He actually calmed down quite a bit after I said that.

What bothers me is that H basically won't talk to me or barely talks to me & always acts like he is the victim in the relationship which I don't get. And I continue to be friendly, cook him dinner on nights he is here, etc. I did ask him to get pizza tonight b/c I knew I was going to have a long day and told him I would be really tired to make dinner tonight. H started acting upset that he was going to have to get pizza, and I told him fine I'll make dinner if it is too much trouble to get pizza, but he then agreed to get the pizza (I've made him over 100 dinners in the last few months I would think and he takes OW to restaurants 2x a week (according to his credit card), it is ironic that he would act like a pizza for the kids and I is a huge deal!!!

H is going to watch my D8 for a lot of the rehearsals except when he has a 2 day business trip this week it appears so I am grateful for that. He had been breaking promises and not being a great dad (obsessed with OW) in the past & now does seem like he is caring more about the kids & trying to see them so that is good at least. (H still doesn't seem to want to see me at all though!!!) Karen

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