Stronger - but still confused

[Snow White]

I guess for me the blanks are whether or not there is a physical affair going on. Why does it matter? Maybe it would make it easier for me to detach. Cause God knows I really suck at this.

Really you are right, whether they are sleeping together or not H has made it quite clear it does not matter how much hurt I am feeling at his actions he will do as he pleases, that should be enough for me to say goodbye.

I understand your concern for D and I but I think we will be fine in that aspect. As over the top as last night was once I got H in the car, really at no point did he actually hurt me, The only mark I have today is a black knuckle and a black palm of the hand that I gave myself when I lost it on him. I know you are all incredulous since I have already stated he tried to choke me, and he did but it was really more of a nusiance while I was trying to drive, if he had wanted to make it hurt it would have. He destroyed a lot of my stuff which is crap but not one time did I actually think he would hit me. If anyone thinks I am defending him I am not, I just think of all the things that I have concerns about, getting hurt physically really is the last one. Now that my in-laws know they live just one block away and could be here immediatley if I ever had concern.

H is gone now but he didn't take anything with him so I am guessing he will be back. I brought the suitcase up for when he returns.