no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

when I get back H gets ready to leave
he said two words and was gone

I felt this urge to say something but didnt
I cant believe I am doing this for 14 months already
tonight I am feeling so ancy, like I can take another mionute
dont know what happened

it hurts and I dont see H coming around
in fact, he seems set
I think they dont file as another from of avoidance
what do you think?
like why do it now, if you can pospone it another few years
and why do they want to be friends?
why not never communicate again?
there is something that keeps them coming back besides the kids??they cant let go of the connection, but they cant return, so they pick this space in the middle probably another form of avoidance again to really end the R
maybe they can avoid the pain ( that we feel) by staying somewhere in the middle
i dont know
any thoughts?
Peace