Hello Mr. MLC part tres'...

[mymonkeybug]

Well H just left after being here most of the afternoon. I think he is guarded now that he has told me of his affairs.

He was very distant today and it just seemed like he was concerned I might let Queen B on the lose any moment but I hugged him and told him we were OK and reminded him that what is done is done and I will always be his friend and we will do this together for our kids sakes. Doing all that reassuring and good wife stuff we are to be doing.

I still at this moment don't think I could take him back due to the major trust issue since he has been lieing to me for nearly 8 months now even though he only left 4 months ago.

I also believe he is confused that I am in such a happy place and that it appears as though my life is going so much better than his new life that was SUPPOSED to be this awesome new life he always wanted. I think he is rethinking his actions now and realizing what has happened as it really sinks in now.

I wish him all the best and do love him on some level but am myself confused about that level.

More to come over the week I am sure. Oh can't remember if I said this already or not but he told me yesterday that he has to reassure this new woman that he will not leave her to come back to me. I am thinking maybe she is feeling some insecurities in their relationship given who he is and what he does still for me and the kids. Hmmmmm...I hate to say it but I am almost enjoying watching this unfold and watching him flounder through the waters of the sess pool he has gotten himself into. I don't want him to drown but he must make his own way back to shore.