Today she's cleaning the house, very happy to be living here I guess.
A few minutes ago she asks me a question, whether or not I was thinking of taking a job in Phoenix, because I had mentioned to D17 that a friend told me about it. I told D17 I wasn't going to because I didn't want to move the kids, or myself away from them.
I explained that to W, who just said she was wondering because I hadn't said anything to her.
Then she goes on to ask about tax filing, what am I going to do. How bad off are we financially. She was calm but seemed depressed about it all.
I told her that yes, we do have a lot of debt, and that I don't need to take a job and move because there are people who would like to do business with me. I said that I've had to recover from being sick for so long and I had to do it on my own, with the help of my many friends of course.
I told her that I know I will recover financially and that my goal is to make it so I don't need HER money, so she can LEAVE.
She seemed melancholy about the whole situation. She agreed that she sees that I'm getting better, and nodded her head when I said I wanted her to LEAVE. She said she was sorry for putting me on the spot, she was just asking for information, not trying to make me feel bad.
That ended that conversation, and I left her alone.
A little later I saw her and she was 'happy' again. She was telling me how the girls don't talk to her any more about stuff, and that D12 told her she was worried that she and mom don't 'connect' as well as she and I do. She tried to act like it didn't bother her, but it does. Neither girl relates to her right now. W told me that it's probably just a 'cycle' they are going through. I didn't offer any explanations or advice.
So, here we are. She is very pleasant, smiles, makes eye contact. We're becoming the best of friends when we DO interact. I keep my distance because I don't want the interactions to make me hopeful.
At least the anger is gone. But she's still leaving. And she's not emotionally supporting me in any way. I guess we'll just become the best of friends.
I finished another project last night. Just thought I'd mention that.
