Cake eating or progress?

[Trixi]

Thanks MM. Yes, I recognize that he was giving me a compliment (in his weird way). When he was beating it into the ground, I said "look, I get it, You slept with young beautiful women; you don't need to beat me over the head with it" and he said "you're not getting the point- they didn't have anything that I wanted. You're better than they are." So, while I understand that he was giving me information about his 'revelation', it still hurts that our 13 years of exclusivity is now been broken. Oh well.

So, I pulled myself together yesterday. He was very oogly googly; I drove and he kissed my hand a lot, held it while I drove, etc. These last few times "together" (ahem) there has been a lot more loving touches. I think he must feel better now that he has told me he has been with other people (and I am still here) and that we have discussed that we are dating exclusively. And this time, WE are dating exclusively all the way around- not just sexually exclusive. (The first time he proposed we date after he left, he said we could be exclusive sexually and go out with other people platonically. ugh)

I am just letting him lead the way and I will go ahead and risk my heart; I really do still love him A LOT.