I know I have to be the stable one for my D. I'm scared of what she's "learning" when she's w/ W, but I can only control what happens when she's w/ me.
As for the Snake, I'm praying that his true colors will come out and soon b/c that may make things become close to civil b/t W and me. I know he's not the man he's pretending to be for her as his past clearly shows what his motives are. W will have to hit "rock bottom" before there is any hope for change in her.
However, once she his the bottom, she may choose to stay there rather than look inwardly for any sort of change. As long as she continues to externalize her problems, there will be no changes. I hope losing money on the D, losing complete control over D4, and having the OM reveal his true self to her after parading around as her savior will lead to her bottoming out and wanting to go up.
That is what I can hope for, but I'm not sure when, if ever, it will occur.
I still miss her and I wanted to touch her and see her smile yesterday when we met. Someday I won't have these feelings for her any more, but I'm still in love w/ the woman she is, not the person she's acting like now. I wish the Alien would leave and bring my W home.
No matter how sad I am over missing W, I still have to continue living life for me and D. We'll be ok through all of this and if/when we continue our journey w/out W, we'll adjust and be fine. It will take time, but we'll both get there together.
