Beauty is still holding on ths site and kids..

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Journaling...

H is going crazy! or I should say I am driving him crazy! He expressed his feeling.

Summary... 'I think it's wrong to say but I do not want to be around you if you are dating someone. It will be pretty much divorce. I don't like how I am feeling. I know I am over reacting but this is how I feel... I am really jealous and when I think about you being with someone, I cannot stand it. I knew this day would come but I am not ready for this.'

It seems like I gave him the similar speech multiple times when I felt desparate. I am not sure how to react to this..

He asks about what I am doing, what he think I am doing, he guesses what kind of men I may date, just all about my date which has not occured yet. He does not seem mad at all.. just kinda jokingly bring the topic up.

I said to him " I cannot believe this is how you act after you put me through all the things you did. It does not make any sence that you have other women and don't want commitment but you are acting crazy if I date with someone else"

He said "I know... that's why I said 'It is wrong to say this... but it's how I feel' but again, I am not stopping you. It's your life"

I am confused ever! I don't know what to do... He is thinking about me alot. It is good.. right?
Beauty