Well, I have a feeling that I'm not going to need to read any books about affairs... I fell victim to a snooping opportunity (found H's new password for his email and looked...) and read numerous emails between H and OW over the last week about their love for each other, and H's realization how in order to have OW in his life forever, he needs to make the decision to leave the house. THis is after more drama between them, and then coming back together (and H moving back downstairs to sleep)...the words he wrote her broke my heart; they were so earnest and so much like a grown man in love...with someone else.
Oddly, I am not crying my eyes out...stunned and not sure what the hell is going to happen to us all, or when this will come about...I really don't know how this will affect my older son and college in the fall, and I think I will probably grieve more for my 2 sons and their lost opportunities than anything else right now.
Not sure what to do now...I guess I will just keep waiting...I just don't know...I could really use some help...
