And I realized something funny both during the show and later posting tonight.. THAT was me, truly me, for awhile. Before the show I was a stress case buying water, getting dinner, upset about having trouble finding the right gate.. WHY?? That's not me, it's me trying to be perfect and it's just not worth it.
I am jumping up and down for you! Oh, Nikki, THIS IS IMPORTANT!
I've been doing work in a journaling/self group with a small group of women, and the deeper I go, the more I see how I sacrifice ME in so many ways, just by not being truly authentic. We hide ourselves a lot...especially as women...and try to be something else.
The thing is, once you get a taste of just being and not worrying as much about the outcome, it becomes impossible to go back. THIS is detaching from the outcome. No lie, it's been a bit of an adjustment for my H, but I refuse to hide or hold onto things anymore. He can do whatever he wants with my information, but *I* have to be true to me.
There's a quote by Anais Nin that has just resonated with me on this topic:
Quote:
And the day came when the risk it took to remain tightly closed in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.
We bloom during this process. Isn't it divine?
Have a GREAT time tonight at Bruce!!!!
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
