As you can tell from my previous post I am struggling with expectations... I also struggling with what role I am to play.. am I "just" his friend and the mother of his daughter or am I more? A brief conversation I had with him yesterday is still bothering me this morning so I'm bringing it up here instead of to him...
So today is Saturday.. it's the day we are supposed to do dinner and a movie (steak and a movie).. He had agreed that we should try going out on a date a few weeks ago.. and then with his surgery happening on Monday he said he'd like us to go out for steak together, just the two of us, for his last hurrah before having his mouth wired shut. Which as you know I was very excited about.. until last night. Last night he said he had a lot of work to do so he was going to work Friday night away.. but that he would probably hook up with his friends at the bar after the movie on Saturday night (tonight). Is it wrong for me to be annoyed by this? Now I feel like he's just putting time in until the bars open where he can be with the people he really wants to hang with.. and I know I'm not going to be invited.. he's never included me with this group of people... I just feel wretched. Am I over reacting?
