I worried the whole time he was gone, he was an hour later coming home than he said and he texted me one time while he was out then in the car on the way home. Pre - A there would have been no contact while he was out and he would have probably came home at the same time but he would have said he was coming back 2 hours before that which would have made him 3 hours late. So I guess this should seem more positive but when you don't trust you are always thinking.
This morning he was grumpy before he left for work, could be because so far he has worked 60 hours this week and although he didn't feel tired when it was time to go out last night he is feeling it today.
I need to focus on evening out my moods, I am very up & down hopeful/questioning, looking to the future one minute giving up completely the next and nothing really needs to happen other than just sitting here thinking. I don't think I need AD because I am not crying or really depressed - although there have been moments naturally.
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009
