Well I have certainly done it this time. I met H at the batting cages tonight after work and he ended up taking S with him and my D came home with me. My S is staying the night at my MIL's house. H calls a couple of times and so I asked what he was going to do and he said "hang out", to which I replied what does that entail? Are you going out with OW and he said yes and it just snapped in me. I told him that even though he refuses to speak the words, the choices he makes reflect his feelings. I asked him why when he had the opportunity to do something with me did he choose her everytime and TELL me that he is going to end up with me?
I let it stew for about an hour and then sent him a txt that pretty much said I'm going to let you go. I didn't get any response from him and about 2:30am I was rereading it and resent it by mistake. So the phone rings almost immediately and its him asking whats going on? He says he didn't get it the first time because he was at Eagle Mtn. Casino (so much for not gambling) and that we could talk in the morning. I told him that there isn't anything else to say and that I had said what I needed to. He ends up getting mad at me and saying, well you said I had until July, but I guess that was just a lie.
WTF? You cheat on me and continue your affair and you are mad at me for letting you go? How in the hell does that work? I told him that if he wasn't willing to stop the bleeding that I would and he gets mad... If you know you are going to end up with me, be with me. If you aren't, go away. Why does it have to be so complicated?
So all my DB'ing is out the window and I may have just screwed things up for good, but I need some relief. Living in it day to day, 24/7 is just killing me.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
