The 1 he left me for isn't even around anymore. He is not living with this current, so he says, I can't believe squat now from his mouth, but the new one he has been with for 2-3 months.
He can become emotionally attached to me again, and I do believe he already is to a degree. I however right now am more hurt by the lieing and deceit than by the affairs. The 1 he left me for wasn't worth it or he would still be with her. This current one probably won't be around long either. Hell he has been super flirty and friendly with me for 2 weeks now, been hugging me and pecking me on the cheek, asking me for sexual acts...hmmmm I bet she doesn't know any of that.
I have been thinking this morning about all this. His grass isn't greener yet he claims all that he is doing with me is just being friendly and joking but I believe he is testing the waters. He says she is really good to him and has a career and a place of her own. Well I gave up my career to mother HIS children...I have a place of my own that he actually owns with me.
I only hope he can help me realize where it went wrong with us by telling me WHY he wound up in the arms of someone else instead of mine. I know I played a part in it but simply don't see my part yet. I can't believe it was solely financial...my Queen B side pushed him away also, maybe his low self esteem helped get him to where he is, who knows, there are so many possible variables.
He told me yesterday that when he is here on Sunday he will talk to me more and give me answers to the questions he CAN answer.
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
