God give me the patience and the strength...2

[theotherhalf]

so do you think an2m that that is all it was

he really said some hurtful things

now that i look back over the conversation it's like he was looking in the mirror. because what he was accusing me of is what he is doing to me. so i wonder how much of it was guilt, how much was real

and as far as OW...she is probably what sparked the whole thing anyway because supposidly he was at N's drinking all night and was just fine. He went home at 2 and did not call me till 3. and we had been getting along the last couple of times we had talked.

i did catch him lying again too...surprise surprise. Well talk has been that he was going to buy a harley. Well he doesn't know that I know but a couple of weeks ago he went and ordered one. Everyone knew but me (so he thought). Well this morning he told me that he got turned down "because his credit is no F*cking good" I told him that I didn't believe that and of course he got all mad and said he lies to me all the time but wasn't lying. Well found out later today that his credit passed immediately with flying colors. Problem was, he has to come up with $1200 down and we don't have it. So, I guess he is talking of selling one of our 4 wheelers and did sell 4 cows. His mother says if he gets a harley I better take out more life insurance on him.

blah blah blah.

i really see that my H is following the script to a T. question is...will he ever get over this...will he ever look at me as good again...will he ever stop hating me for whatever reason...will he ever love me again...