Confused as Ever

[Snow White]

Good friday night all. H is gone out with buddies for the second Friday night in a row. Hmm the 2 previous he fell asleep at 6:30 - I must not be as entertaining as the boys!

H's birthday is tomorrow. For the past few weeks he has chided me all week with going Par-t-ing on the weekend. He had mentioned nothing about what he was doing tomorrow night. At dinner tonight I asked him what he would like for supper for his birthday, he said I thought we are going to your parents. My parents always make everyone dinner for their birthday. Last week he had said he didn;t want to go there on the Saturday I suggested another day during the week and he didn;t commit, when my mom brought it up I told her not to bother.

I then asked what are your plans tomorrow night, he said I thought maybe we could go to Ridgeways. Ridgeways is the bar I met him at a few weeks ago after I went to the casino and he got a little antsy. It is the only other time we have been there for drinks so I guess he thought it was a nice time.

When he left tonight he gave my daughter a kiss and then asked me for one, just a peck, but still,this is shocking as even pre A this would not happen,(he really only shows affection during ml).

I am going to think of these as positives(even though every time he walks out the door my stomach is in knots)

One more thing I am thinking of as a small, very small positive. Everyday, and I mean every single day, for months H has felt the need to look at ow's facebook page, 90% of the time nothing has changed(since I look too once I see he did)but if someone wrote on her wall ect he checks it out. He has not checked this page since last Saturday.