I sometimes do the same thing with people that are close to me. I talked it through with my C during my M days.
I disagree, apologize - think I am done. But in my case, I am a little slow. My subconscious is not okay with the resolution of the disagreement. And well - my conscious doesn't feel right but hasn't figured out why. I am externally crabby in reaction to my subconscious.
And the discomfort builds up and builds up on a subconscious level with me reacting more and more - until I blow up!
My C told me to handle this by telling the person I am feeling crabby towards tht I am feeling crabby but don't know why yet. And I find if I acknowledge consciously that I am not okay with things - the conscious sometimes figures it out. And it helps if the other person acknowledges that I am not feeling right and it is okay. And it seems to diffuse the big blow up.
Each cycle is a little easier. Of course there will always be fights and some blow ups. But this helped me when I was M.
