It is tough but I am doing well. I at least now know this was not about me.
If he at some point wants to return I don't know now that I could take him back. Only because of the trust...I don't know that I would want to live the rest of my life always feeling like I had to look over my shoulder and wonder where he was or who he was with.
I just don't know anymore how I feel about him other than I know I do still love him very much but am not sure what kind of love it is now. Is it love because of what we did have and our kids or is it deep love want him back kind of passionate love?
The roller coaster ride is heading down another big dip...
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
