[girlfromipanema]

I was in the bathroom getting ready for work this morning when my husband knocked... lets just say we enjoyed each other. It was probably more of a need fulfillment than motivated by love, but a girl's got needs too. I really, really, really miss that part of our M. I wish I felt comfortable and secure enough in our relationship to initiate again. I'm just so uncomfortable with rejection from him.

I spoke to my IC this week and he encouraged me to talk to H about his incorrect assumptions made when we were overseas. H's behavior towards me did change dramatically after the baby threw up on me and I kept my distance because I was sick. Maybe he really does believe that I hate kids and his incorrect assumptions helped him drive the proverbial nail in the coffin of our marriage? I just don't think I want to initiate a talk with him. I'd really love it if he would talk to me first for a change.

I've been working on some additional goals to attain. These are more for ME than my marriage, because I'm really not sure how I can set goals that aren't directly related to my actions.

New Goals:
1. If H wants to discuss things with me, I'll remain open and REALLY listen before I respond
2. Be more consistent with weight training: 3 x's per week
2a. Sub goal: lean out my legs/backside
3. Attend Bikram yoga class at least once per month
4. Drink more water and less coffee
5. Organize my closet
6. Treat myself to at least one new outfit/pair of shoes per month
7. Brainstorm new GAL activities
8. Make some new friends that aren't work-related/tied into my M
9. Vacuum my car once per week