Jen, the main difference with you is that you have actually been trying to make changes to yourself. You backslide...Well, we all do. But you continue to try and it will become easier. You are actually listening to the advice that you are being given. You are not just playing the martyr!!!! It takes time.
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"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz