Serial EA/PA WAW/MLC

[BradNL]

Hope4Us,

Yep, they live in a weird world... My W keeps telling me how unfair it is that I get the kids so much, but is leaving as soon as I get home to stay overnight with her OM... Apparently she finds it too difficult to be in the same place as me, while I don't have that problem... guess the guilt hurts more than I can see.

BeingMe,

Argh. W has a tactic of ambushing me with her latest and greatest plans and expecting me to respond immediately. Since her cheap apartment deal died she is back to wanting custody and/or our apartment... I can appreciate her generosity(?) of not wanting to push for alimoney or high child support by working, but threatening me with lawyers is not making anything better.

As for the grass is greener, no, she is unlikely to realise that it isn't so, and definitely wouldn't admit it if she did. W has her OM and her new life all planned out now. Which means she has no plans at all of working on anything but her new life. I think W gave up on our marriage too long ago and has been finding any and all ways to get away since then.

And I am not working to get her back, I'm working on keeping my kids safe, she is way too far gone to care about my changes and I'll admit I've been backsliding on that part for a while. Stopped taking my AD meds, after the headaches and still trying to get my sleep pattern back again I think I'm settling down again. Haven't gone back to being wide-eye awake with head racing all night, haven't had massive panic attacks, so I'm doing ok for now.

On the Brad-is-doing-it-for-himself side I bought myself some games for my PSP, a pair of new (not that nice, but not too expensive) noise-cancelling headphones since my nice ones got broken and a gaming pair of headphones. W always complained about my obsession with headphones... heheh, I loved my old noise-cancelling ones... doubled in price since last year!!! Maybe when I'm in the USA I'll look for a good deal on some decent noise-cancelling headphones, Dollar->Euro exchange rate is very good for me *8)

And on a good note, for me & the kids, W is coming with us to my birthday lunch at a nice restaurant tomorrow, will be good as one of our final we're still a family events. Not looking forward to S5's birthday in August, or indeed Xmas, will be hard this year.

Tonight the kids & I continue watching Superman! Yeah! We watched the first hour last night before it was their bed time, they didn't seem that interested until Superman flew off from the Fortress of Solitude in his trademark red and blue suit *8) One of the things we've been doing together lately is watching Smallville, so getting to watch the real Superman is great for them. I watched it when I was but a wee boy with my mom in the cinema (yeah, I'm that old, hehe) *8)

Tomorrow should be a good day, I'm looking forward to it. How about you?

Brad