I have noticed some of us are coming up on the start of our year 'anniversaries'. The bomb, certain dates, certain yearly events, these are all hard to face. Triggers can be so hard. We remember how vulnerable (and sometimes, blind, in my case) we were and it scares us. I think what you are going through is so very normal. It doesn't help that the phone went straight to VM, but maybe he doesn't have service at the moment.
I trust your H isn't doing anything. I hope he stays most of the time during the camping trip.
You poor thing, struggling with moving to piecing. I think you 'qualified' for piecing months ago, but I understand your hesitation. I am thinking of you.
