no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

Thanks girls for your support

I left H a VM today just clearing the air..It felt right
D did amazingly well in T as I stayed at her request and she shared from her heart
I was so happy for her
she has my genes there!
and I got to listen to her deepest fears and thoughts about H



i am doing ok
went to Therapy as well and she always validates what i am doing(her job)
I get clearer about my choice to stand and I still want to
but I am also clear that while I want to DB and practice unconditional love for H, I also want to allow for some reality talks when it seems appropriate and I no longer fear H leaving for good
I am ready for whatever way it goes
My T says she believes it will be my choice
although she has no crystal ball and has no way to know what results will be, it still felt good to hear that from Her

MY dream about being in a swamp
and then seeing this beautiful clear and almost perfect road sit with me daily
I see the road as acceptance and although I am not there, I am closer and it is my goal
a soon as I kick this cold, I will try to get on the road and get back to GAL and PMA
things that are hard to do when your nose is stuffed inside your head
peace