Not the person I was before

[redhottie]

As I was driving to my T I realized I still didn't know anything WTF H is thinking or planning. I told her the same. She was glad that I stood up to H and thought all the things I said to him last night were good. They probably went in one ear and out the other. Who knows if he has processed any of it.

She said I need to decide what I want. Do I want to fight for my M and if so why? Do I want to be married to the person that H is? Right now I'm so tired. I don't feel like I can deal with him anymore. I just want to move on with my life. I am so tired of not knowing WTF is going on and what is going to happen next. I don't know if H can ever love me the way I deserve to be loved. Don't know if H will ever want to make me happy or if he will be able to make me happy.