Well I feel like I need to post and put my feelings into words. For me it is a good release and a good reference point for my Journey.....
I am also saddened and confused by the way this board seems to be so "proper" now and doesnt seem to have ~LIFE.
When I used to come here I could drop in on any random thread and draw knowledgr from others and , cry and laugh too. Blush occasionally and say to myself you know what I never looked at it that way and genuinely change.
It genuinely breaks my heart that I do not see that here anymore.
MY M has greatly grown and as a Human Being ... I have grown tremendously by taking in what I have read here. It was is if the person posting was here with me and I could really take in what was posted and use it for movement forward.
I also used to put books that I had read down in my posts, is that breaking the rules also?
I was never trying to break rules .... I genuinely dont believe any of us are. All of us want to be here to provoke thought and to grow and to change and to make our M the best it can be.
Were there a few bad apples or is it going towards being just this shiny version with no real Life behind it. Life is raw and organic and sometimes doesnt have order.... sometimes , most of the time. We are trying to find ways to live better with our significant other and live genuinely.
So why does this seem so stifled to me. I posted here weeks ago hoping to get some advice and still have not heard a thing..... And I feel I am ok with this,, but what about someone who is in pain like I used to be is he or she getting help? I hope so....
this board saved me literally. Without all the real people here I dunno if I would be Married to my H anymore.
Is there a way to get this board up again that would please everyone again? I truly hope so and I will pray for this.....
This place really can work Miracles in us..... where is everyone? I dont need everyone to post to give ~ME advice. I am not that ~EGO centered I just dont feel the Life in here that I used to. and it breaks my heart ~really.
