The wine event was really nice last night. We went for dinner first, and she brought up R talk...I went along for the ride. It was good; once again I told her that if we reconciled, I don't want to do it cold turkey, I would prefer that we ease into it. She said she was still on the fence, but leaning toward an eventual reconciliation...she just doesn't know when. She asked if we should have a timeline. My opinion is "no", because it's a form of pressure, so we left it hanging for now. She asked if getting back together was definitely my goal...I tensed, but said "yes, even though I have detached myself from the sitch, I do still see us trying again". She said "so you would be upset if I decided not to come back". I said I wasn't going to lie...of course. But either way I will be fine. She told me everyone she knows thinks I am a great guy and that it is so weird that we are apart, since we are a 'model couple' in so many peoples' eyes.
Oh well. So I wait.
After the wine tasting event, I was not able to drive, so I stayed at her place. We agreed, no sex, it complicates everything. So of course, we ML like mad demons, wow, it was incredible. We woke briefly at 2:00am, talked and cuddled. Fell back asleep, woke at 6:00, she cuddled into me with my arm around her. She said "I feel so protected". I said "That's not a bad thing".
I left and came to work, and here I am....
I was uneasy with how we talked R a LOT. But I think overall it was a good night. Have we moved closer to reconciling? No clue...one day at a time.
