Hi guys I'm new and found this website about 4months ago... ill give u a little preview and my mistakes... My exH and i have 2 children D5and S3 we where married for 5yrs we had problems in our marriage but i never saw my self getting a D. on 10/10/06 he left the house and never came back i did everything i wasn't suppose to do and i felt desperate along the way.i finally said "forget it" because it was very hard to deal with. now i feel like a failure... i have a hard time dealing with the D and i have big regrets for filling the paper work i wish i hadn't and now i cant do a thing about it... its done and over with... I go back and forth with this issue. i dont know how to move on... sometime when we get together i get confused because hes sweet and touchi for example he went to the park with the children and reached over to see what i was doing then he kissed my ear, he gets very touchi and it makes me feel wanted by him. it feels like he might want sex even though it's been 4-5 mths since we haven't been intimate... he still wants some kind of attraction and thats why i get confused... i spoke to him and tolled him about my feelings and he said that hes hurt yet makes me think that hes uninterested in pursuing anything else... theres more to this.. another example is that an ex-(friend) emailed a joke and i made a mass email to everyone not thinking anyting wrong from it... my ex got upset and asked if i was still talking to him and he questioned my sexual life... when im not doing anything wrong. this was much to my understanding jealousy, i did clear it up there and then, but im not clear of his love... is it love jealousy to think that i might move on or wht. i love this man and its clear that i dont know what to do, i want him back and so far anything that I've done has not worked!
please excuse me if some may not make sence its really late and i just cant sleep! please help!
