Kerry - Who the F knows w/ her? Her mood and demeanor w/ me is about as easy to predict as the winning Power Ball numbers. One in about 2.5 million times I'll hit on the right answer.
I just did my 100 push-ups and rode the bike (which I'm sad to say is going away w/ W) for the 1st time in 2+ weeks. It felt good and I'm glad I did it. I'm heading to the gym at 7 for my 1st consultation w/ a trainer to set me up on a program.
Also, I've taken off my ring. I've debated and debated this to death, but I've decided that I needed to do it for me. I'm not giving up on trying to save my relationship w/ my W, but I need to focus on myself and I've come to realize the ring made it difficult to detach.
W may be surprised to see me w/out it as well, but I'm not doing this to get a reaction from her. I've done it to get me to refocus on me and my D right now. I can't spend time worrying about W as she clearly doesn't want any part of me. However, I need to be the best me I can for myself and my D regardless of what happens w/ W.
It makes me sad, but I'm ok w/ the decision. I need now to be about me and D w/ no distractions.
