I remember going to the doctor a little over 2 years ago and talking to him. I said, I'm overweight, overworked, depressed, my boobs still leaked from nursing a year & 1/2 earlier, H & I had different schedules & I never got to see him.....etc. I told him I'm 38, but I feel like I'm 80. I went home & told H about what the Dr. had recommended to me. H just said....you just need to workout more....you'll be fine.
Sue reading this teared me up. You know that none of these things matter. When I met H I was 118 pounds, when I married him 6 years later 132, Last May after being married for 6 years and having a child I was 176. I remember one night saying something to my H about it and how gross I thought I looked. he looked at me and said Neecy I love you and it doesn't matter to me if you were 300 pounds you gave me D4 and I will always love you. Was I thrilled(i would be now) no I was hurt, I remember telling a friend about it the next day saying that I wanted him to find me attractive and by saying that it was cutting that away, I didn't want him to love me because I gave him a daughter. I lost a lot of weight after that, when he had started the affair I was down to the size I was when we married, now I am down to the size I was when we started dating. OW is between 250 and 300. It just isn;t about these things.
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009
