Actually, he wants to go the divorce route again. He doesn't have feeling, but he wants to check up with an outside person to see if his perspective on life is ok. I did mention depression.
So......
he does not want a marriage with me.
I chose to believe he will rebound from this eventually.
Bomb 1/06 D dismissed 11/07, attempt reconciliation. Premature. Divorce final October 31, 2008. OW looks like bad history. Over. Still hopeful. Baby steps. In R with my X.
I think we will be ok. He is going through this MLC in typical fashion. I have good counseling that supports this. So this is part of the ride.
I just knew that something was not right. It was too easy. It was going too well. It HAD to have a bump or a mountain with valleys.....something.
I just sensed he had not crashed.
I believe he still loves me. He is scared of loving me. THen he has to take responsibility for his actions. He is running away.
We will see.
I have faith hope and love. I have God. I am OK.
Bomb 1/06 D dismissed 11/07, attempt reconciliation. Premature. Divorce final October 31, 2008. OW looks like bad history. Over. Still hopeful. Baby steps. In R with my X.
but he wants to check up with an outside person to see if his perspective on life is ok
Uhm, well did he happen to mention what his perspective on life is?
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he does not want a marriage with me
I am not sure I agree. He had a choice to make a few months ago. HE CHOSE not to move forward with the divorce. If he DID NOT want it he would have ended it then. He could have figured out his perspective on life while divorced.
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I chose to believe he will rebound from this eventually
Are you choosing to believe this rebound from MLC included wanting a marriage/relationship with you?
Either way Holly, you've always made the right choices in how you handled your situation.
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
Holly, I am sorry to hear the latest. I am glad you haven't let this new bomb take you down. You are incredibly strong. I hope it all works out of you someday.
he knows he wants me to be a friend. Can you say, Cake eating? And did I mention that he admitted to going to see OW for a day?
He said it was a mistake.
He does not have feelings for her either. He said he hoped he had feelings for me, that would develop that week. Can you say, cycling? Touch and go? Predictable?
Well it did not feel that way, but I have come to an understanding that this too shall pass.
I heard it from a source above. Faith, Hope and love. these three, but the greatest of these is love. I wonder. Today, I would say the greatest of these is either hope or faith.
No, this is not over. He will come around. It does hurt a great deal though. I have struggled alot these past few days. I will be fine, and I am better every day. Not like the first bomb., where
Bomb 1/06 D dismissed 11/07, attempt reconciliation. Premature. Divorce final October 31, 2008. OW looks like bad history. Over. Still hopeful. Baby steps. In R with my X.
