You two are very insightful. Although I did not have kids, I feel very similar. My W has had absolutely no contact yet she lives around me. I actaully saw her the other day at a store. It was the hardest thing and it set me back about 10 steps of recovery. I too want her to "crash" and realize how good we had it. I realize too that I wasn't the perfect H, I had my faults. Yet I wish she would see me now. She would see the kind man of God that I've become again. Instead, I know she is living a wrong life. Using RO to cover up a multitude of sins. So do I just give up? Most say I should but I just don't know how to... Not that I can't live without her, its just that I dedicated my life to her. I made a promise before God. Things were great with her overall before she became crazy after our move.
My counselor has suggested that she might have an attachment disorder. That explains some things but it also makes me frustrated that we couldn't work through these issues. In short (as wierd as this sounds), I would give anything to get her back. But only the her that loves me, not this current woman that seemingly has no heart. Sometimes I just wonder if it was ever really there...
