Bring on the Rain

[SueS]

Hello Everyone-

I've been a little out of it the past few days! Yeah for me, I got Influenza B!! Yuck! I was hopped up on cough medicine with codene yesterday and slept the whole day! I am at work today, but just because the first of the month is so darn busy for me.

Let's see.........
I went to get checked out on Monday night because I couldn't stop coughing. I was sure I'd crack a rib. Yes, I had a fever & turns out I was officially sick. I hate calling off work unless I've been told "You're Sick".

H went to dinner with a friend on Monday night and got home around 11:00 pm. His selfish side showed up AGAIN. He came into the bedroom & I told him not to sleep in bed with me and told him what the doctor had diagnosed. Yes, he'd been drinking. When he went ahead and laid down in bed, I knew what was up. Yes, even after telling him what I had and coughing like crazy, H still started to try to feel me up. Yes, you read that correctly! I got up and walked out. I knew H would pass out so I just fell asleep in the living room. You probably wonder why I didn't say anything. Well, because he'd been drinking, I didn't want to be subjected to the words I knew would come out if I outright rejected him. Regardless of how I was feeling, with him being drunk, he still would have said things.......heck, he knew I was sick & still tried to feel me up.

So, I stayed in bed all Tuesday. H got home and made dinner, which was nice. I asked him to please rub my back at some point because I was in such pain, but that didn't happen. He fell asleep on the couch. I ended up just crashing myself. I heard him come into the bedroom & get his pillow so he could sleep in the den. Guess, he didn't "need" anything from me last night.

Talked to D4 a lot since she left on Sunday. She's doing good. I was glad that she didn't have to be with me yesterday


LO- Thanks for stopping by! I hate to see so many others going through the same pain, but at the same time, it's comforting to see that others understand so well. I'd love to plan a time for that road trip!

Karen- Why isn't your H happy now that he's single? Maybe because he's seeing that it wasn't you & the kids that made him unhappy....it's not the OW & new relationship that makes him happy. He's seeing that HE has an issue. It's not others, it's himself.

I feel bad for the children involved in my sitch. OW has 4. I forsee my H trying to convince OW to leave the kids with their dad. I truly do. He tells OW that he KNOWS that with her come her kids. And as much as he might be able to see them as someone else's responsibility and not his......he'll still have them in his life. I DO NOT see this man as being able to just flip a switch the day they move in together and put aside his own needs for OW and her 4 kids. I'll have a heart attack if that actually happens. I can almost bet everything on the fact that it won't happen, he won't change.

Well, time to get back to work.

Thanks! Sues