I feel the same way. Its hard to not want to be in the WAWs lives, especially when you still care and want them back.
I feel now, that this was a blessing in disguise for me. I always hold love for her..but I would not have made the neccessary changes in me that I needed and God wanted to show me to make. I also feel that this would have ended in some way shape or form later on anyway in the state I was in, anyways
I look back on myself now, and think.."I cant believe that was me!" I really have undergone a massive overhaul that can only be explained by God's grace. I, too, have wished nothing but the best for her, and I admit, I have my moments or disarray and loneliness about the M. How things could have been...
I too, wanted her to crash..to see its not so easy. But that would be wrong. I hope it works for her and OM. We were perfect for each other at the time...now, we are not...so I accept that, even if at times I disagree with it. Its easier to bail on a M than to work through it.
Its funny you mention the similiarities with you and OM. Her new BF looks just like me, and treats her the same when we were together! So much for finding herself..Thats why I worry about her repeating too. I have always had a gut feeling she will, at some point, come back to me...just a matter of if I want her back.
Some bridges can't be burned anymore.
But the past is in the past. So, what did I learn? How to be a better Christian, father, friend, and person. I cant even say I would take her back...but as someone posted here before..
The door will always be open...its just a matter if I answer when she knocks.
