Ugh. I am just so miserable and lost. H tried to talk to me about what I "envision" when we separate and I resisted. How do I not enable the separation and "go dark" if we have to talk about this stuff? I told him that he refused to do MC with me and so I am refusing to discuss separating with him. Why should I go along with his plan when he refused to even consider mine?

I feel so utterly powerless and hurt and angry and worried for my Ds. I think the fallout for them will be huge.


Me/X-H: 47/48
T 19 yrs
M 16 years
D14
D10
ILYBINILWY: 10/07
H moved out 6/08