Still in love with my waw....after divorce

[Bill_S]

Chevelle....right as always

She had her issues LONG before me. She just repeated the same pattern with me. Now shes latched onto another guy(whos coming to my house to be with her tomorrow) to feel better. Hes younger than her just like I was.She was a Christian when we met and I looked up to her as a good example. Now she told me she respects ME and thinks Ill be the one to turn her around!! OHHHH...no pressure there!

I pray for her relationship with this guy."If this is what you want for her help them through their problems. If not, then open her eyes and help her to do the right thing..." or variations. I guess you can tell how far along you are in the forgiving/moving on front by being able to pray that and mean it....or close at least. Im learning to be happy where I am but the loneliness gets me at times and when that doesnt its the resentment.

Ive dealt with most of issues. I can tell because for the last week (off of bp med) my blood pressure dropped from a high late last year of 180/100 to 130/90. All because I was stressed to the breaking point for at least 5 years. Something to be thankful for!!!!

Im still learning to let go but since I started praying for her R with the OM I feel TONS better. Its amazing. I still try to take it back at times. But I just try to do a little better every day and show her what she lost...not that she sees or cares. But at least I know I learned from my mistakes.I dont know about her though.

Thanks again guys,
Bill

Oh and Chevelle..read most of your thread (forget which..earliest?) and it still amazes me how similar this stuff is. Do they share a playbook??