How long has this been going on for you? When did you get the bomb?
From what I first remember of you (I read a lot about you) you were one together person who was doing great! You were always very supportive. Maybe now you need more support from us.
Somewhere I read, recently, about being in this for five years. Not sure when that is supposed to start (from the bomb or from when they start being nasty to you) but five years is a long time.
Cinders, the only person who can answer all of your questions is God and He will if you ask him.
Hang in there...sometimes when it seems the darkest is just before things start to break through.
You are human. Allow yourself to be human and make mistakes.
