Well, here we go. Been a few days since I really posted, and the old thread locked up. I had a great visit w/D on the central coast. We hiked, played on the beach and visited Hearst Castle ...which was amazing!
On the way home I visited my Son in SF and met his girlfriend. Very cute, smart and seems like a good match for him! Then back to my California Ranch house, yard and real life.
I have been working on trying to get my life in order. Remember last summer when I got the boot from CG? My response was To Prepare for my Beloved. As a short re-cap, this was a guy I met on match. Things were fun and flirty and fantastic for a month or so, then he cut it off. At the time he said it was because he was fresh off a breakup.
Well,
Guess who I had a drink with last night? He sent me an e-mail and invited me to meet him downtown. I did. We got a quiet table and caught up with life in general and mundaneness. He looked as if he had one or two before I got there. Anyway, he wanted to tell me something. He said that I really scared him! I guess on our first or second date he asked me what I was looking for on Match, and apparently I said I was looking for someone to grow old with. Well, I may have said that. I have been in such flux the past 5 years I have said many things that were true for that moment, but maybe not so true 10 minutes later. I am sure that if I did say that I was speaking in general terms and not specifically about him! (on our second date, yeah right!)
However... I was touched by his insistence that he share with me his feelings.
AND...I was still very attracted to him. We spent about 2 hours together and he walked me to my car. I think the feeling is mutual!
DARN IT! I have a LOT of work to do, and these darn butterflies are distracting me!
Down to Earth...
Life after D has been a financial struggle. I do have some great skills, and I love what I do, however it has been hard for me to make the transition to a full time supporter from part-time hobby worker. I have been torn between consulting which is spotty and takes time for marketing and such or working for someone. Working in the school system has been hard. There are few-to-little full time jobs in my field, and the pink slips are going out because the state budget is in arrears. SO I was very happy to see several good jobs come across my desk in the past few days. I will apply and put in my hat with the rest of the applicants, but I don't think I could have written a more perfect job description if I tried. Wish me luck! CG and his attendant butterflies will be on the back burner until...well until ***I***am ready. I am STILL preparing for my beloved.
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh SG HAS A BOYFRIEND, SG HAS A BOYFRIEND! lol
Yes I remember him SG! you were bummed , i felt bad for you , now seeeee things happen for a reason, maybe it wasnt the "right time" last summer, maybeeee it is now!!
soooo have you made plans to meet again??
Be Happy for this Moment, This Moment is your Life
No plans. Pins and needles. Hate that waiting by the phone feeling so I am trying to work and I have a workshop in the morning a luncheon for noon and a poetry reading to go to tomorrow night!
That'll show him! LOL
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
Isn't it interesting, he was scared off by a comment like that (I don't see anything wrong with it, btw - just kinda the opposite of "looking for a casual roll in the hay"). And isn't it interesting, that after all this time, he was still thinking about you, and felt the need to explain himself to you?????? Clearly you made an impression - and maybe he's not so scared on a new R anymore?
BTW, do you have plans to meet again?