It has been a long time and I have so much to say in such a short time... Long story short. I have been played yet again. In about Jan 08 my (STBX) had his attorneys send me a series of court dates. At the same time, he started paying attention to me, offering to do things for me, kissing me, trying to ml... all after about a year of treating me like I had yellow fever.
My father passed suddenly in Feb 08 and once again, H was there to rescue and help, kissing, wanting to ML, eating with us... I thought (maybe this is the breakthrough) and I totally let my guard down...we became almost like a couple again...
He started telling me that he was going to have the court date postponed due to issues with his attorney. Literally up until the day before we went to court to begin finalizing things, he told me that he was going to have the court date dismissed. I believed and let my guard down. Only to to told that day that he indeed still wanted to divorce as it was long over due...!
I got to court and sobbed as they talked about my life like it it was some obsure mistake...I am devastated. He is back to treating me like crap and I feel sooooo alone. Lost really because I let my guard down and allowed myself to believe in a miracle for myself.
At this stage, I am trying to salvage some of my self respect and strategize for how to live moving forward. Can anyone offer any advice here ? i am devastated and just dont' know what to do.
Save a spot on this curb for me as I will be here soon...much to my surprise.
