Keep on Swimming, Swimming, Swimming!

[Survival_Goddess]

Well, here we go. Been a few days since I really posted, and the old thread locked up. I had a great visit w/D on the central coast. We hiked, played on the beach and visited Hearst Castle ...which was amazing!

On the way home I visited my Son in SF and met his girlfriend. Very cute, smart and seems like a good match for him! Then back to my California Ranch house, yard and real life.

I have been working on trying to get my life in order. Remember last summer when I got the boot from CG? My response was To Prepare for my Beloved. As a short re-cap, this was a guy I met on match. Things were fun and flirty and fantastic for a month or so, then he cut it off. At the time he said it was because he was fresh off a breakup.

Well,

Guess who I had a drink with last night? He sent me an e-mail and invited me to meet him downtown. I did. We got a quiet table and caught up with life in general and mundaneness. He looked as if he had one or two before I got there. Anyway, he wanted to tell me something. He said that I really scared him! I guess on our first or second date he asked me what I was looking for on Match, and apparently I said I was looking for someone to grow old with. Well, I may have said that. I have been in such flux the past 5 years I have said many things that were true for that moment, but maybe not so true 10 minutes later. I am sure that if I did say that I was speaking in general terms and not specifically about him! (on our second date, yeah right!)

However...
I was touched by his insistence that he share with me his feelings.


AND...I was still very attracted to him. We spent about 2 hours together and he walked me to my car. I think the feeling is mutual!

DARN IT! I have a LOT of work to do, and these darn butterflies are distracting me!

Down to Earth...

Life after D has been a financial struggle. I do have some great skills, and I love what I do, however it has been hard for me to make the transition to a full time supporter from part-time hobby worker. I have been torn between consulting which is spotty and takes time for marketing and such or working for someone. Working in the school system has been hard. There are few-to-little full time jobs in my field, and the pink slips are going out because the state budget is in arrears. SO I was very happy to see several good jobs come across my desk in the past few days. I will apply and put in my hat with the rest of the applicants, but I don't think I could have written a more perfect job description if I tried. Wish me luck! CG and his attendant butterflies will be on the back burner until...well until ***I***am ready. I am STILL preparing for my beloved.