That's great you've made plans. That's a start. i know what you mean about being angry at yourself for letting this go on.. and believe me I feel like that still. Its like "how could I let him to this and say these things to me.. but not everything is cut and dry.
my heart goes out to you..
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.