Logically I know i just need to take a step back and relax but emotionally it feels impossible.

He is very up and down, in all aspects of his life. I think he thinks thats what makes him so "special", like a tortured artist syndrome.

I do feel angry that i love him. I feel like I should be a stronger woman. I'm a feminist for crying out loud! Why do I care? Why do I love one stupid man who has been nothing but disrespectful to me?

I've got plans for tonight and tomorrow. Hopefully i can keep my mind off things.


Me BS 30
Him WH 32
Kids 9, 4 and 2
Together 12 years
DDAY#1 9/30/05 False reconciliation
DDAY #2 3/13/08 blindsided

Separating and heartbroken