That is a very sad story, H. It stops you in your tracks when someone you know dies, doesn't it? I think the important thing is to find happiness where you are. Our lives aren't so bad, you know? We always think we need this or that to be happy, but we don't. We need to accept who we are and that this is our life, and stop comparing with everyone else. Especially people on tv or in the movies. The4re's no reason in the world we can't be happy with what we have. Happiness is a state of mind. If you want to be happy, change your mind!
Thanks for making me look in the mirror I can always find a positive in other people’s sitches but have a hard time with my own. Yes I have mentioned it before. Ya don't like the song change the channel. I am going to have some heavy journaling in a little while... It's not that I am sad or depressed but it is where I am at. In a way I think I caught something from MO2C... Sorry for being a tease but I want to do some retail therapy and go but a couple more button down shirts... IT'S nice to be noticed... I find that when I keep getting complements at work from the ladies about how I am dressed... It is a major PMA....
Will be back soon....
DrLOve
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Ok as I said before I think I caught something from MO2C. I have caught that missing feeling. Now don't get your panties in a wad...I am not leaving. It is so strange. W is being really Nice. She is talking to me, not just what is necessary but just chit chat kind of stuff. But I have gotten that "as if" feeling without trying. Now I am saying this when it is not happening but I do think if W said she wanted to go. I don't think I would stop her. But like jak58 said and I think NikB also brought up. When things seem "normal" you have to go a little farther just to make sure... I did do some more retail therapy today. This is a little issue I have. W takes care of the bills and I ALWAYS ask if I can go buy something. A while back I went a little crazy and got a bunch of stuff. (Money is tight but....) You see When W wants a blouse or shoes she just buys then. It's not like she does this all of the time. But she never informs me that she is buying something... Ok I think I got a little off track. I am detaching a little more. I got a hold of my friend and we are going out Friday night. (I am going to wear the new shirt that W likes). But like I said.... I am "thinking" more now about asking for a D. I AM JUST THINKING ABOUT IT... I KNOW that before I do consider a D WE WILL GO TO RETRO.... that has become a must... I think I have detached.... I think I can make a non emotional decision. Even though D has crossed my mind.... I have made a decision to try and work on my marriage... I mean I can always get a divorce even after trying to work on my marriage... but... after a divorce it will be alot harder to work on my marriage... Hope w gets a job soon. Please do not worry; I am not going to do anything that I have not already done. In fact I am going to keep on doing what I am doing because is seems to be working. W is at ease. When I talk if she does not hear me she asks what I said. (This is new, before she couldn't care less what I said)It's just time to do a little more GALing..... Maybe.....Just Maybe... I can make W start pursuing M.... that would get that "feeling" back....
Take care Dr LOve
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Dressed in my new shirt. This morning there was a note on our "message board" that the phones W ordered are in Oakland. Ya see it was kind of an excited note. Like W thinks everything is ok. This is good. This will give her more of a positive attitude when going for a job. This is why I can't bring up R now. I just need to run my world parallel to hers right now. Last night we were discussing son's home work and she wanted me to help him with his Map. (I am the creative artist). While I was doing it W was in other room talking with MIL on the phone. She was laughing and having a good time. I like to see her out of that depressed mode. Come to think of it she has not been in that depressed state for a few weeks now. When I told her I was going out Friday with friend she did not "seem" to happy. Is she starting to see me moving on? Is she worried because she knows he is getting divorced and is VERY friendly with the women and MAYBE this may not be a good environment for me? This is why I gave up my friends for her in the past. She did not like the way they were with women. Even though I NEVER gave her any reason not to trust me.
Ok I am off to see my E-Mail.. Oh by the way my co-worker / friend that had the stroke did not die. I got a letter from his x wife. He was transferred to San Fran General H and is improving... Looks like I may be taking a trip to the city this weekend. No wait they are bringing the Olympic torch though maybe next weekend..
Back soon DrLOve
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I don't think she is ready for that yet. MAYBE after a few night of me out with Nephew.... I can ask her but I don't want her to feel she has to like my B-day dinner went. I want her to Want to go out...
H
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I understand that......I just wondered if she was beginning to feel like that, which was why you sensed she wasn't happy about you going out?????
I look at this as a ggod thing..
Boy you would not believe the commotion I am causing here by just wearing button shits... One guy asked if my W threw my t-shirts away... then this "single" woman asked me "what's shaken besides your booty?”
I think today is going to be a great day...
Pisces February 19 - March 20 Before you do anything for anyone else today, do something for yourself! It doesn't have to a big thing, either. Tell yourself you look super sassy. Buy yourself an extra fancy coffee drink. Book yourself a massage appointment. Take an extra long lunch and go see a movie you've been dying to see. Take the initiative to treat yourself like royalty! It's the best example you can set for others. Things that are valuable need to be cared for. And you are something of major value! Aquarius January 20 - February 18 Today, there is a high likelihood of confusion. The details of your bank account and credit card statements could be telling you two different things, and it is absolutely essential for you to get things straight today. If you don't, you could be under the wrong impression about how much disposable income you actually have. An unexpected invitation comes your way for a fun (and totally free) event, so if you have the time you should definitely accept it. Leo July 23 - August 22 If you are in a group situation today, perk up your ears! Listening is going to benefit you a lot more than talking will. So keep mum about what you think or what you want to do -- let everyone else weigh in and argue over the pros and cons of different options. Just be careful that you don't appear to be uninvolved. Maintain eye contact, take notes if you want to, and give important physical clues that show you are paying attention. You don't have to talk to play a big role! Capricorn December 22 - January 19 Why are you looking behind you? Thinking about what has already happened is a waste of your time, and a waste of your energy. What's done is done. Today, turn to face forward and look at what is ahead of you -- there's a lot to be done, and you can do it well. Have faith in yourself -- everyone else has faith in you. Advance on a project (any project) today, and give yourself something to check off your list. Standing in one spot, wondering if you just made a mistake, is silly. Sagittarius November 22 - December 21 Today, you will be smack dab in the center of everything -- and you will have a lot of influence over what could happen next. The skills you have been learning over the past few weeks have given you capabilities you never knew you had before -- and you need to use them before you lose them! You know exactly how to wield your power today, although it might take you a while to work up the gumption to take charge. Once you do, though, everything will fall into place. Libra September 23 - October 22 Take a little more care with how you eat and what you eat. While your diet might not be that bad, you should be more mindful of what you put into your body right now. Illness is a possibility, but it is one you can prevent with proper nutrition and a good night's sleep. Another good idea is to stop doing so much 'on the go' -- multi-tasking is only helping you accomplish a lot of things. It's not helping you accomplish them well. Quality is much more important than quantity right now.
Dr LOve
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
