no matter what H decides to do...just as love is a choice so is happiness...before my H returned I decided I was going to be happy...by myself...if I found someone else or H returned I would still be happy first for me...then with my mate...When H returned I could look him in the eye and tell him that I didn't NEED him anymore...but I did WANT to be with him...
I am beginning to feel that I will be happy, no matter how this turns out. I don't want my old marriage back, I want the opportunity to work on a new and improved model with my old friend. If that is not possible I will be at peace and happy with myself.
The wedding ring disappear/reappear is quite interesting to watch. It's not very important right now since he has his one year lease. However, he returned from meeting his sister for church on Sunday without the ring. At dinner time it was back in place.
I've done two 180's recently. The original plan for the start of our "25th Anniversary Vacation" was for us to both go to NYC next Thursday. On Friday we are to meet friends for a dinner cruise around Manhattan in preparation for the vacation proper. He has decided to work on Thursday and travel all day to arrive just 90 minutes before the dinner cruise. I prefer not be rushed so I will be going on Thursday anyway, checking into the hotel, and do not care if he is late for dinner, or nods off during it.
He's flying back from Europe and I will be staying for a while longer. When I finally got around to booking the tickets they had gone up in price. I found an amazing price on a Westbound crossing on the QM2 (less than a non-stop flight) and booked it! I was fully prepared to sail alone, but a friend of long-standing has decided to share my cabin. I would consider this to be GAL in a big way. Three months ago I never would have considered doing these things. Partially because they didn't seem "fair" to H but things have changed.
In about a week I'll be probably going dark on this forum, I'll be thinking of you all and hoping that your DB will be having the results you desire and rightfully deserve. When I return I'll roll up my sleeves and get back to work with my own DB.
Me: 59 H: 59 Together: 28 years Married: 25 years in August "There may be someone else" 12/26/07 H signed a one year lease 4/1/08 H moved out 5/11/08 H beginning to show a tiny amount of interest 7/5/08 Is it possible that he is courting me? 9/30/08
