Thanks for checking in on me CL. I do feel pretty good in general, and it's nice to feel that way as opposed to where I was a year ago. For sure.
Last night H held me and let me talk about my feelings...it was really nice, he seems open to how I feel about where we are and is complimentary of me. He doesn't reciprocate with his feelings though--I have no idea how my sharing made him feel, or where he is emotionally. But he was here, listening and affirming, and I think I need to take that as the loving action it was and accept that he processes his feelings very privately. I need to let go of the worry that his feelings are stuffed rather than processed. It's beyond the scope of my control.
