I suck at "no expectations" myself. But right now I would absolutely love a warm hug with a squeeze at the end, so try to "accentuate the positive" in your sitch.........
I spoke to my Mom and she didn't get the results from her test. She thinks she has to wait until the results get sent to her Dr.. and the Drs office calls her to schedule an appt. I will make sure I'm there for that. I had thought my sister was going to go to the test with her yesterday but it doesn't sound like she did.
I'm going to go pick up D2 from daycare.. I managed to check out most of my friends from the newcomers section.. but I still need to go to the other boards where there are some other people I like to pop in on. I'll attempt to do that later on this evening.
From this point forward is a quick journal.
Yesterday H called in the morning.. just to say hi. That was nice.. He ended up going to home town to see his Dr to get his paperwork signed that he was healthy enough to go for surgery next week. While he was in hometown he saw his folks... and that caused him to not get to the house until 7pm. I know it bothered him. I could sense that he was trying to be chipper. He's been trying to get here earlier than that to spend quality time with D2.. and his Mom made him late. I acted "as if" he wasn't in a bit of a bummer mood and just kept the conversation light. His stomach is also bothering him (which has happened SOOO much since the bomb).. He put D2 down for bed. Hung out with me for about 45 mins and then left with a quick peck and hug. I saw this morning that he sent me a text saying that he's looking forward to our steak dinner on the weekend.. and he also sent me an email.. which he signed "love, petname". All good things.
He called this morning before I took D2 to daycare and said that if I had time after my ortho appt today to swing by his work and we can do a latte. So I did. Talked about nothing in particular. Spent about a half an hour together.. then he went back to work and I came home to put D2's bed together. I had her sleeping on a mattress on the floor since taking her out of her crib.. I think she's been okay to be in the bed for a while now but I hadn't the time or the energy to put it together.. so I did it this aft. Phew.. this being at home these past 2 days has been exhausting.
Great work with the "act as if". There have been many positives with H the last couple of days - it's all due to your DB. He sees the changes in you. Keep it up!!!
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
My dad had the same test about a month ago and the bloody Dr/lab took about 3 weeks to get the results. I swear Canada's health care system needs a complete overhaul. I hope the reults come back positive.
You're doing so well with your sitch! I'd be so proud of myself if I were you!
keep up the DB and let us know how everything goes.
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Look at all these baby steps!! you sound really happy and relaxed even though exhausted! does that make any sense?
Keep us posted on your mom. REALLY good job 'acting as if' with H. And I like how he's trying to come over earlier to hang out with D2!!! And also with you
thanks for posting on my thread, sweet friend ((HUGS)) T
Hey W2G! Its amazing, that he is hanging out for longer periods and also with the text messages and little love yous and pet names...would you say that contact or the quality of his contact is escalating? It looks that way. Its amazing how calm you are, it comes through in your posts, so you must do such a good job of acting as if around him. You sound very centred, and that must be an attractive quality. Seeing as you are getting on so well, have you invited him to do anything with you? (cant remember if you had or not recently) or are you happy to let him initiate still? Sounds like things continue to go well...
Ali xxx ________________ Me: 37 BF: 34 T: 9 years IDLYA: 2 Nov 07 Own flat: 26 Jan 08 current thread
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
WOW W2G!! That is fantastic news- looks like your super-great DBing is paying off! You are so right about it being 'All good things'. It's a testament to your strength and patience, and super-act as if powers!
Hope your Mum is OK. keep us posted.
L.xx
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart. And you'll never walk alone.
